As We Digress: The Little Things in Life

To know: to possess knowledge or information about.
To realize: to understand/perceive (an idea or situation) mentally.

Fact: human beings are not perfect.

We all know that we are imperfect creatures; yes, we have intelligence and brains, we have the ability to think, to know, and to be aware of ourselves and all that encircles us, but this doesn't make you "feel bad". In fact, it makes you feel superior to others because you know all of these things, be them mundane or of utter significance. The fact is, the action of knowing makes them equal in value, because knowing, while important for us to realize truths, is not realization in itself, thus whatever information you may have in your possession is all of the same value because it does not affect you.

Fact: human beings take forever to realize things.

Realization on the other hand, is a more superior form of knowing. It is the step that comes after knowing. It is important to know in order to realize; without intelligence and brains, the ability to think, to know and to be aware of ourselves and all that encircles us, we cannot realize. Realization, unlike knowledge, can be hurtful. It's a process of knowing, realizing, getting hurt, taking action and moving on.

Once you realize you have done a mistake, well, let's not kid ourselves, we don't only make one mistake. When you have made quite a handful of mistakes you know of course what you did, we all know what we do, yes, we know, but we never, ever realize the magnitude (or triviality) of which from the beginning. We all need a wake-up call, a reality check, a slap on the face, perhaps several times, to actually realize this stuff, and it's hard, it's difficult to know one's mistakes, to be at peace with yourself after you've realized what you did, and the most difficult thing would be wallowing in both self-pity and resentment at once and then move on, making a promise to yourself that you'd never do the same mistake ever again, half knowing that the constant presence of a certain catalyst will always lead to constant same-mistake-making, forming a vicious circle.

Fact: the worst mistake anyone can make would be the one made against oneself

Making mistakes with other people, almost always has a solution, even if the parties involved choose to never talk again, it's still a solution. But making a mistake to yourself is just horrible: you are yourself. You can't stop talking to yourself, you can't resent yourself because then people would resent you, you can't judge yourself because your self-esteem would hit rock-bottom and no one would ever like you because even you don't like yourself, you can't split yourself into two entities (well you can, but that's another story for another day), and you absolutely cannot think that you don't deserve happiness because then you really don't.

You can always take solace in the fact that no one is mistake-free, especially mistakes made against themselves, but one should learn and one should avoid and one should help fellow human beings.

You can always take solace in the little things in life; the little smiles, the little nice songs you like, the little practices you do unto others to make them happy. I know one little thing about this: giving a massage to your favorite little person, with their little shoulders, little backs and little feet and their demand for more massage time, that makes them giggle with their little mouths and little eyes is absolutely one thing worth living for.

As We Digress: The Constant Need for Money and Affection

Of all the things that humans may feel, the various shades and colors of all things emotional, the most constantly-felt would be the need for money and affection.

The observation made above is the fruit of many months, days, and hours of noting this, that and the other and it has resulted in the association of money with emotion, well-being and self-respect. So while money isn't actually an emotion, the emotions we get when money is involved certainly are, making money an emotion by association.

The day money started mattering to us on an emotional level, that is money being so closely linked to our well-being and happiness, the world today has completely changed our values. Yes, the old saying is money can't buy you happiness, but the fact is money is able to buy you things that are bound to make you happy, upon all stands financial security. That is true. However, money is not supposed to enslave you, money isn't supposed to be such an integral part of our happiness and welfare because money comes and goes, sometimes it is more gone than it is around, so one has to learn how to be happy and satisfied with whatever one has. It's not easy, because it is a philosophy that has to come from within you, not imposed upon you. It's a conclusion you reach, not a lesson you learn. So, for once, I hope that all of us, rich and poor, or even those stuck in between, would reach that conclusion sooner or later for humanity's sake.

Financial satisfaction, or the better word would be contentment, has long been confused with sitting motionless, waiting for money to knock on one's door. I'm sorry, but what kind of a gullible bastard can one be to actually believe that they are being content when they are actually being passive? To earn the money you deserve to have is one thing, to allow yourself to be enslaved to it is another. Know the difference.

A good substitute to worshiping money would be filling your life with meaningful relationships that are bound to leave you emotionally secure and satisfied. The existence of which is a good antidote to the poisonous effect that money has on the world today.

Money is status, money is security, money is happiness, money is love, money is power...

Money is nothing.

The shockwave from possibly the hottest thing in nature meeting the coldest, like emotion and money -one being completely abstract and more profound on all levels, and the other being worldly and materialistic- would actually crack the Earth in two. And it's cracking. Those two have finally collided and now we have to live in a world of chaos where emotion and money are of the same value...

It's a sad, sad state of affairs... Very much like seeing people you haven't seen in years and see that they have not changed one bit. People, who in the first place, you so mistakenly thought would mature with time, but to no avail; they are still the same.

It is sad, because once you leave those people behind you'd think that life would teach them a thing or two. That the school they go to or the job that they have may actually save them from their miserable selves, but no, instead once you cross paths with them again you are only reminded of why you distanced yourself from that sorry act in the first place; you only see that only little has changed. And while you sit there listening to the same old, frustratingly repetitive babble, you wonder: "have you not changed one bit?", "you're still falling for the same type of guy/girl who always manages to fuck up something in your life?", "why am I here?", "grow up!", and "get over yourself"... No prospects, no ambition, no effort into a decent living, immaturity, stupidity... Those are the very qualities that possess the ability to fracture a relationship as such. Sometimes life is just too disappointing that one needs to take a break from being a human being.

But it is sad, most of all, because we have given up on trying to change the world we live in, and I mean this in the least idealistic manner possible. I don't mean to say that we should all diminish the hunger and disease, the wars and murders that take place each and every miserable day of our lives as citizens of this ever-deteriorating world we live in, I simply mean to say that we have given up on improving our own lives, our own values and our own well-being, and that is precisely why we are going down and we are taking down the world with us. So cheers to whoever wanted to watch the world burn, because here it comes.